So it's been a revolving door of soreness, illness and injury, with very little in fact acquired by fighting, but all the same it is AFFECTING my fighting.
For the past month I've been dicking about with Tennis Elbow in my right elbow(sword arm) and it's not seeming to get any better. Lastnight I only made it through two fights, one with Wernar where I couldn't keep my sword from flopping all over the place when he struck it, I had no grip to speak of and I finally had to just try and work on my defense and punchblocking instead of attempting to throw(spagetti) shots. Then after taping my elbow in a figure eight, to limit full extension of my elbow, my arms are so soft that the tape had to be so tight that by the time I finished my second fight with John the Unkempt it was painful to just do nothing. While S helped take off the tape, i found myself almost hyperventilating with a kind of pained panic. It's a mark that I realized what was happening before S had to remind me to slow my breathing. And the detaping itself hurt. And the blood coming back into that area hurt. And...
I really hate this feeling of weakness. I AM trying to get fitter, it's a slow dedicated process that I fear is not quite (fast or determined) enough. I am by all accounts doing better at practices these days, or Aiden wouldn't have tapped me, but in my current frustrated state I have this reflex worry of not living up, or making forward momentum.
So for the next week I am not going to fight. I will likely be at practice, studying my opponents(a new thing Aiden has set me to doing) and this also might be a good time to drag in my pell from the garage and practice lefthanded for a while. And hopefully by giving my elbow a break I'll be in better condition to fight at Coronet. Plans are good.
On related matters, I've been watching this
show, which is kind of inspirational. And started reading this
book, which is a very interesting read so far. And was recommended this article
to read by my security guard here at work, while we talked about my complaints above. It's a nice article, I wish...no. Am leaving this on a high note.